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This was my rule too. It’s starting too anyways.
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confessionsabouteatingdisorders:
I gain weight, then freak out and start restricting again. I want to stop thinking about food, to stop planning meals in advance, to stop counting calories and just eat like a normal person. I want to get rid of the sick pride I take in an empty stomach. Get rid of the sick feeling of pleasure I feel when I eat less than my friends. I want to feel in control again.
Everyday.
confessionsabouteatingdisorders:
And I know he likes me back, but even if he tells me he likes me, which he probably won’t until I’m skinny, I wouldn’t let myself be with him yet. I need to learn to love myself first, and by doing that I need to be skinny. I can’t wait til I’ll actually let myself be with him, and make him proud.
I am currently in this..or I think I am, I don’t know if to trust myself.